And all that I doWill somehow always remind me of you.Of the way I let the feelings inWhen people like youwere still allowed under my skin.You made me slam every single doorLooking at what you had done to me, only to leave me suffer more.Living on my own and I knowI'm crawling through life, being my own shadow.I used to feel and dreamHope and wish you'd seeBut you're blind, and I've died inside.I was stupid for stayingI should have run awayWhen you were at your weakest.But I waited for youAnd I helped you upThe same way you pulled me down.I hope you're happy with yourselfAt least you can still use that word.Thank you for giving me silence.Now I will give you hell.

And even after all the timeThat we spent togetherI have to admitI don't remember the taste of your voiceOr the sound of your lips.And after all the daysThat you were nearI have to askDo you remember what it looked likeWhen you made me smile?Months have passedAnd years will comeAnd I will be sitting hereWonderingIf you're still the same.And years will drag onDays filled with quiet doubtsDeafening silenceAnd more tears insideThan could ever roll.Missing you is like lifeKnowing that it will endAnd hoping it won'tBecause it's all of youThat's left for me.

I once read this quote. It looked pretty simple, and it probably is, but I just can't seem to shake it."You meet everyone twice in life".That was it. But those six words, they turned my whole life upside down.We were on a holiday with the family when I first noticed the quotes on the benches all over the place. Of course I wanted to read all of them. And this one was the very last. Right when you think you're done. It hit me like a ton of bricks.What does it even mean?I've been asking myself this question, over and over again, for the last five days. But I think I've figured it out, what it means to me at least.Second chances. Everything in life is all about timing, and when you meet the right person, when you're in such a bad place, it's doomed. I believe in second chances. I mean, I'd hate to believe that I've lost you forever.It's funny, how I think my heart has walls so high that no one could ever climb them, and yet there you are. It's almost as if you're an angel, the way you flew in as if it were nothing at all. But somehow you lost your wings or decided to stay on the other side. Because right now, you're trapped on the inside, and there's no way you'll ever be able to climb out of my -because of you- loving heart, that'll always beat for you, and only you.